What's Beyond the Pain Barrier?
A fence. A fence which you have been trying to climb over your entire life. A barrier. A barrier standing in between you and your happiness. A wall. A wall you cannot see through or get past and do not know what is behind it. Yet everyday you push your palms against it. You have never seen it. But you really want it to blind you. You do not know how it feels. But you long to feel it. You don't know if it tastes of heaven or if it is tasteless. Despite, you open your mouth and stick out your tongue as you close your eyes and pray for it to touch your taste buds. You try to grab it; stretching your finger tips as far as they go. You have never heard it and you don't know if it's as loud as silence. Instead you turn off all of your senses and press your ear against the unknown and wait for it to hit your eardrums.
Tell me one thing.
What happens once you get over the fence? What do you do as you stand on the other side of the wall? What will you be trying to grab and stretching towards as the barrier stands behind you?
Tell me another thing.
What happens when the thing you have been trying to see your entire life is emptiness? Is it emptiness that fulfills you as your taste buds are flooded with the bitter sweetness of your own saliva? Is is silence drumming on your eardrums as you drop your finger after yet another failed attempt to grab it?
Let me tell you something.
You can try. And try. And try again. Better yet? Stop trying. Stop trying to reach what's unreachable. Stop trying to get to the other side on the barrier. Quit being the 'Superman' in the 'Superman is Dead' story. Eventually, you will get there. And once you do, it will be the best and worst thing that ever happened to you. When the unknown is hugging you from all directions, you will never be back to where you have been before. So enjoy the pain of having your heart smashed against that same wall you are trying to get over. Let failure saturate your mind and let yourself go down the wrong paths as long as you know the way back. Allow your heart to enter where it has never been before without your mind being the security guard. (Nevertheless, do not dismiss it in case a fight breaks out.) Take chances and lose. Do not wrap yourself in cotton wool to prevent a nail breaking. Let yourself fall over and get hurt.
Because when you get past it...it's that much better.
Tell me one thing.
What happens once you get over the fence? What do you do as you stand on the other side of the wall? What will you be trying to grab and stretching towards as the barrier stands behind you?
Tell me another thing.
What happens when the thing you have been trying to see your entire life is emptiness? Is it emptiness that fulfills you as your taste buds are flooded with the bitter sweetness of your own saliva? Is is silence drumming on your eardrums as you drop your finger after yet another failed attempt to grab it?
Let me tell you something.
You can try. And try. And try again. Better yet? Stop trying. Stop trying to reach what's unreachable. Stop trying to get to the other side on the barrier. Quit being the 'Superman' in the 'Superman is Dead' story. Eventually, you will get there. And once you do, it will be the best and worst thing that ever happened to you. When the unknown is hugging you from all directions, you will never be back to where you have been before. So enjoy the pain of having your heart smashed against that same wall you are trying to get over. Let failure saturate your mind and let yourself go down the wrong paths as long as you know the way back. Allow your heart to enter where it has never been before without your mind being the security guard. (Nevertheless, do not dismiss it in case a fight breaks out.) Take chances and lose. Do not wrap yourself in cotton wool to prevent a nail breaking. Let yourself fall over and get hurt.
Because when you get past it...it's that much better.
posted by Canela at
10:09 pm
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